why am i here?

the short answer is simple,

because master mcshane told me to....

why?

to help future bootcampers.

i'm not going to candy coat anything here, so this may be an interesting 3 months...

ok, let me start with this. ive never been about belts in this system. im not even doing this for the belt. the belt isnt what i see at the end of this path.

what IS at the end of the path?

that will be the last entry on this blog, i guess we'll figure that out together, but im pretty sure its not a belt.

this belt means more to my kids than it does to me. and that can be filed under "motivation".... i'm leading by example.

to me, surviving this is a challenge to myself.

following through.

finishing what i started.

does that mean i dont "respect the belt" or whatever that is?

does it mean im gonna fall to pieces if i fail?

nope.

im realistic.

im a 40 year old father of 4 awesome boys, with an amazing wife who , like myself, works full time.

spare minutes, and free nights are really nonexistant.

the arrangement of time revolving around this test, and the strain it puts on my lady.....

are challenges.

the nights i work late, go straight to train, and get home late, and dont get to see Rhys....

kinda make me sad.

yet nobody is making me do this ..

and im SO psyched, and honored, to be part of this group. i am already having one of the best experiences of my life.....

bittersweet.

so maybe you have some stuff in common with me.

maybe you have a busy ass hectic life, but also got stung by the ABD bug...

and just want to keep going.

maybe if you keep reading my stuff, youll learn from my mistakes, take some of my advice, and that can be part of what you bring to your own test if you make it there. ( and you will if you want to)...

and if that happens?

well, master mcshane, once again, knew what he was doing.

and i'll be glad i could help.

c-ya.